fuckin retarded

you ever feel like you almost had something and then you lost it? i was just sittin here over-thinking something and i just got heeeellaaa emo. i hate it when that shit happens. ESPECIALLY WHEN IT'S ABOUT GUYS... WTSHIT!? hella gay tho.

then i think back to all the advice i gave other people like "don't get hung up over ONE GUY" or "KEEP YOUR FUCKING OPTIONS OPEN!" well, i mostly say that to matt. but maybe i should start listening to my own advice too. cuz i DO GET HUNG UP OVER ONE GUY. and advice #2 only works WHEN THERE ARE OTHER OPTIONS!! UGH. or at least i don't want any other options. dyeuibjkjkk AAAAHHHHH.GAAAAHD!!