Thursday, April 30, 2009

new jams

1. body language - jesse mcartney ft. tpain
2. best i ever had - drake
3. won't say im sorry - neyo
4. shatter - nasri
5. decisions - neyo
6. change - kelly rowland
7. nothing - chris brown
8. come back to me - mario

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

its complicated.


soo thats exactly how i feel... because i don't know exactly how i feel. hella fail riight? well i guess lemme try to explain. soo i started to feel jealous about something. but now im not sure why i started feeling jealous in the first place. well actually, i partly know one of the reasons why im getting jealous and it's because someone's tryna third wheel off our bestfriendship. and i get super annoyed when it's just us two, and then he's there. like umm... hello a&b only, not c.

but then there's a second part that kinda scares me and even caught me off guard. im afraid of thinking about it because i really REEEAALLY don't think i wanna go beyond the friendship line. i can't figure out when this part of the reason start to manifest itself and that's why even i surprised myself about it. i don't wanna lose this person over sum bullshit.

gaaahd, talk about complicated.

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

i wish i could believe this.

god doesn't give us who we want.

he gives you the person you need.

to help you. to hurt you. to leave you.

to love you. and make you into the person you are meant to be.

Sunday, April 19, 2009

another sorry love post

woow, okay. soo last night was sumthin else. alls i kno is i can't be fuckn drinking and typing on my kick at the same time cuz STUPID EMO BULLSHIT start comin out and i haaaatee bein like thaat!!! it hella pisses me off.

okay soo me and matt went to a lil kickback in union city last night, riight?? and as soon as we got there... i see him. and ohh maan iono whether to feel happy or act like my night was ruined. i can't be around this guy for too long. it's too hard!! i was right next to him but he still felt so far awayy. i couldn't hug him or kiss him or hold him... and that kills me.

i cant be doin this shit nemore.

Thursday, April 16, 2009


i kinda got sidetracked wit LIFE and that's why i haven't been typing in here as much. i promise that as soon as i find mahself a new whip and get a little bit more settledi n this quarter, then i will write out a long ass entry. kthnx =]

Sunday, April 5, 2009

new fave songs

just some songs im feelin right now:

1. keri hilson - knock you down
2. keri hilson - turnin me on (remix)
3. colby o'donis - ooh aah
4. laze & royal feat. neyo - 3 way love
5. throw it in the bag - fabolous feat. the dream

i think im gonna start an experiment where im gonna upload my mp3 files on or wherever so yal can dl these songs. lemme know if u guys think it's a good idea.